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Today is the night that I decided to pour everything out in my mind which has been flashing in and out for numerous times. You have left me near 2 months, in these 2 months I had learn a lot that none of my life will experienced it. You taught me how to be a better person, a better boyfriend, a better son, a better husband and a better daddy in future. Until now, I still kept the entire lesson you taught me, and it will always remain in my heart even in future we might not be able to patch back this relationship again.

Recently, I went back to my hometown. Everyone started asking where my pretty girlfriend ah? They used to ask about my girlfriend all the time, because every family gathering, occasion I will try my very best to convinced her to be along with me. I wanted to proudly tell them I've finally found my partner in life, she is the girl that I will date and she is the one and last in my entire life, I am going to marriage her as my last one in my life too. No doubt, I willing to bring her to show it in my family/relatives gathering because I knew that she is the only one I willing to sacrifice my life to her. Although we had only coupled for few months, but I felt that we had coupled for a very long time. She is the girl that I had my 'love at first sight' feelings when I first saw her in our graduation, God send his blessing to me, I was assigned to sit behind her throughout our ceremony. Apart from that when we were all busy taking photo for our college gang (we do not know each other even though we were from the same college), I offer myself to help her to take photos with her best friend. Ya I know I sound so lame on that time, but what to do I just like to see her smile. Right the way through the whole ceremony, we took plenty of photos together, either singly or with group. I didn’t realized it until when I transfer all the photos to my laptop, I found out that most of the picture taken she was inside, and I was just standing right beside her throughout all the photo, is that what we call fate? Not only that, out of all the photos I had in my camera, I mean singly photo most of it were taken with her, I wonder why we have so much fate during that time? After the ceremony, I get her contact number and MSN to keep in touch as we will forward all the photos to everyone. What I remember was, when we were to return our graduation robe and she was the last few students to return, and she was queuing with her best friend and chit chatted there. I take my heroic to go say bye bye to her before I leave and I requested a last photo from her. Since then, I’d started to sms her, call her and msn her everyday every night without failed. I realized that I had feelings on her even though I just met her for once. In these few days before I really invited her out for a dinner, I kept dreaming of her charming smile, a very very charming smile that melted my heart. Until now I can still intensely remember the way she smile at me, really sweet and charm. And there, I’ve started to out with her, bring her to eat nice food, go Genting because she loves to air there and etc.
Alright, continue back to my hometown, all my relatives asked why my girlfriend didn’t tag me along this time? I told them, I did a mistaken that she decided to leave me forever. And they keep ask, really no turning back for her? Yes, I answered. She decided to leave me forever and she says to me before, if I ever hurt her in future she will not forgive me. Sorry, I didn’t keep my promised to you that I once promised you I will never hurt you but I did it again, really sorry. I felt really sorry to her, but once mistaken had happened I can’t twist it back. Things happen in wrong timing. All my relatives were so cheerless to know we break up, everyone miss you!

After the family reunion, is the time with my family again? This time my family decided to hold a family meeting just for me. We sat together at the living hall and start asking me all sort of things regarding her. My parents say, they never see me so serious in a relationship, yes I admit I’m not serious all the time. Normally when I have girlfriend, I will not bring her back to my hometown for my family to scan through, each time I just felt that that's not a good timing to introduce my girlfriend to my family. But her, even before we coupled I had already bring her to meet my family, and they all like her so much seeing that after I coupled with her, I'd become more mature in everything I do, a better person. And most importantly, I started to know how to sayang a girl, which is her. I sayang her so much until my friends started to ask, are you serious on her? Yes, I answered proudly. I just can tell myself that, no matter what I must protect her, she needs protection. Till then, my parents had given me a green light to go after her before we really coupled; they all can see that she really taking good care of me even before we coupled. Example one time when I was ill for few days and my parents have to drive all the way from Johor to KL just to see whether I’m okay or not, out of curiosity they saw her was taking care of me, cooking porridge, arranging everything, feed me to eat medicine, remind me to drink more water and juices, she even scarify her beautiful sleep and online chit chat time just to take care of me, she sit right beside me comforting me to sleep, make sure my fever has subsidize and a lot more she had did that to me that none of my ex- girlfriend did that to me before, honestly! All this make my parents need not worry that I don’t have someone to take care of me, they even tease me that we both look like husband and wife, but why..... now we become like these?

I try my best to give her the best. I work very hard to earn more money so I can bring her to travel to the country she long awaited for like Paris & London. I have even set a target that end of 2009 I should at least bring her to oversea, if Paris and London I couldn’t afford then Australia will do! I really worked very hard and my job require a lot of outstation and she never sound a words to me before saying that I always leave her alone, from these I know that she is really the one that I needed the most, that is why I try my very best to bring her for holidays. Example our recent Christmas HK trip. As I know she love HK very much especially during winter, so I decided to bring her to HK last year for our Xmas,and she enjoyed herself very much. In that 1 week time, everyday I can see her smile broadly, that’s what I’m happy of it. I worked very hard to earn more money so I could buy her everything. I even had started our future plan, to buy a condo for our wedding in future. All the things that I did, is all because of you! But things have changed... changed!


“All the while when I with you, I always keep my 3 visions as my daily motivation to work’s. I really miss you”

今天，雨天

今夜的我很不寻常，
将打到一半的post全给删掉，
然后对着空白的entry发呆了好久好久...

在没有妳的日子内，
我活了将近2个月，
是怎么活过来的？
我不愿再去回味。
已经够痛够苦了，
够得..连回忆都被我琐住。

所有的妳，
都被我收进盒子，
藏在最深的柜子里，
就在今天下午，
那个我哭完后的下午。

无法多写了，
心里的感觉...
除了很痛，还是很痛...

笑脸

朋友说：“我好怀念你的笑脸，”
我才发觉，
我都忘了怎么笑...
也忘了怎么好好对待自己。

心里的那份散不去的痛，
折磨得我太久太久，
生活..3餐....等等..
都被我无所谓地抛开...
任性的什么都不想管了。

明明知道这样不对，
但我没办法不任性...
要把生命中的一部份割舍，
我1分钟又1分钟地忍耐着..

想逃离那份疼痛，
但它却还是牢牢地，
还存在我的身体内。

对不起

对不起...
为何妳不狠狠地把我骂一顿？
为何连个原因都没跟我要？

这是我的错过。
那是妳的太好。

而我...没有那个资格拥有妳,
因我...还没准备好可以给得起任何承诺。

美仪....

千千万万个对不起

你试过吗?

你试过伤心到 睡不着觉吗?
你试过伤心到 睡觉睡到一半突然醒了接着哭了起来吗?
你试过伤心到 避自己看完一整份报刊然后在街上不停的快跑,把自己弄的精疲力竭吗?
你试过伤心到 开车时,跟朋友在一起时,眼泪突然偷偷流下来,然后狼狈的把它察掉吗?

等待着我已死去的老婆活过来带我一起走

老婆妳在那里?
为甚么丢下我然后自己离开, 妳不要我了吗？
自妳离开以后妳可知道我有多难过多辛苦吗..?
我的天不再是蓝了,没有妳我该怎么办..
我连起来的力气也没有了…
妳是否知道妳是我最爱的老婆/亲人。
那妳又怎么舍得令我难过呢？
我知道我的老婆不会这样忍心对我的.
老婆妳在那里….我很想念妳.
很想很想妳…妳听到吗..?
我的老婆已经不要我了….不再回来了.
她不再爱我了…
她残酷的扔下我一个独自的生活..然后离去.
妳的离去甚么都没有留下,只留下天天想念着妳的我..
我真的忘不了妳.
这到底是所谓的幸福还是折磨..
老婆我真的希望妳能带我一起走.
我一定等妳，老婆我爱妳！

我

我还很爱妳，我放弃不了
我忍不住的去想妳，想着爱妳的感觉
妳留下的发夹还在我的桌面上
妳给我印的字条还在我钱包里
妳用过的笔还在我抽屉里放着
我很想大声的告诉妳，我想妳了~

别人笑我太傻，我笑别人看不穿

被丢下的我还在原位等着妳回来带我走，就怕没有人照顾妳。我哭着求妳留下来，可是妳的心比石头还硬，把我推出门外。心真的受伤了，支离破碎的洒在大地上。我还不该清醒吗? 其实我根本都没有胡涂过，那来该清醒? 别人笑我太傻，我笑别人看不穿。本来去爱自己一生中的最爱就应该如此。
庆幸的是我有机会遇上了自己一生中的最爱。遗憾的是这是一个刻骨铭心的爱情，不能有好的结局。开心的是我可以在这段感情上学到很多东西。惊讶的是原来我是可以那么的去爱一个人。老婆，别抛弃我，我真的很爱妳！

Miss You

I miss the days you held me, and the days I heard your voice.

I miss the days you were there.

Us falling apart wasn't my choice.

I miss the days you kissed me, and the feelings we used to show.

But most of all, I miss a girl that I thought I used to know.

我怕了

我真的怕了。以前，爱情对我来说，一场游戏，一场梦。说说笑笑就当是永远了。只要我觉得开心，快乐，我就会毫不犹豫的尽全力的追求。后果，未来，都不在我 的脑海里。一直到我很认真地去爱一个人时，偏偏未来不会出现在我们的生活里。我真的很怕了。我不怕再次被玩弄，我只怕在我的身边的人会不快乐。我不敢要求 你给我任何承诺，只希望你认认真真的爱过我。等。等也许是我唯一能做的事了。

I really miss you

I really miss you,

and it hasn't been the same.

I drop a tear whenever I hear your name.

第二句

通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
　　
才是真正爱你的人

距离

如果我们之间有1000步的距离 　

你只要跨出第1步

我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步
　　

Happy Valentine's Day

2008 Valentine's... my most happy and memorable V-Day

2009 Valentine's... my most horror V-Day

Wish you Happy Valentine's Day

Have you received the parcel I asked Matthew pass it to you? I sincere hope that you will like the gift and the roses from me.

Happy Valentine's Day from me to you

不会原谅自己

生活真的被打乱得乱七八糟.整个人总是闷闷不乐,提不起劲来,看事情都是灰色的以前那里会这样.这种生活真的好可怕，超可怕!!我不应该受此惩罚.我不甘心!!我开始讨厌我自己,我生气我自己为什么搞到自己这样.觉得自己很犯贱.我错了,我真的错了,我不应该去大学毕业典礼.但遍遍却被安排去到那里.是注定的吗? 是上天的主意吗?是不是要惩罚我折磨我,你才甘愿？我很生气自己为什么由始至终不变地深爱着她.为什么会这样..为什么.很多个问号在我脑海里.真搞不懂为什么一个人可以在明知对方会受到伤害的情况下还要去伤害对方..你知不知到后果的严重性?我该不该去狠你呢?我也不懂...........憎恨自己深爱的人是一种很难受的事情我不想再难受下去.我想我不该恨你或讨厌你….但是我一定会讨厌我自己我不会原谅我自己.

真心的愛妳

老婆
好对不起...
我对妳做了那么多错事,
对妳又不珍惜,
又无理妳感受,
我刚问自己爱的是谁..
我心中的答案我最爱还是.....妳
希望妳给我多次机会
可以和我重新开始吗?
妳要我怎样我都愿意去做好老公的本份!!!
真心希望妳做我老婆!!!

Tears in Pain

My eyes are sore from crying.

My heart is broken in two.

To find a girl just like her,your chances are so few.

I long to hear her voice again.

I long to feel her touch.

Her gentle lips on mine again is all that i miss so much..

希望妳明白

我以为，我放下了。我告诉所有担心我的人，我没事了。我跟他们说，我走出来了，我会慢慢好起来。可是，原来，看着她的照片，我还是会心痛，我甚至，甚至不敢打开那储存着我们的合照的档案夹，我怕，我怕我会哭。

是的，我还没放下。

不知不觉中

这段时间妳不知道我每天是用一种什么样的心情来度过，虽然我们相隔很近但却不能见面…这好比十万八千里还要遥远…可是我仍然能感觉到来自于妳的气息，让我感觉甜蜜，也许是我想得太多了…原来当妳很喜欢很喜欢一个人的时候妳会有很多个如果的…..原本以为离开不会太悲伤直到眼泪它自己落下才发现骗不了自己… 唉..我还是没有足够的勇气来面对失去妳…妳离开的背影不断的在我脑海里出现…妳坚决的离开我再也没有理由去挽留了.我每天都有想着妳…才发觉我在不知不觉中把想妳成为了我的生活习惯了.

分岔路口

什么都别说再说只难过,
难受之后不代表一切伤能带过,
答应过的永远不成真,
当初的承诺已不算什么,
夜里吹的风冷进我怀中,
不再有妳的声音不再拥有妳心,
明天我会怎样没人懂,
时间真的有疗伤之用吗?
看时间慢慢流出手心,
看透妳变了的心,
如果已决定离我而去,
把同情和不舍带走,
站在回忆的分岔路口,
是时候和妳道别,
不再苦恼你我之间的错与对,
未来的日子只剩我一个人.

原来

原来当妳很喜欢一个人的时后,
无论妳为她做多少的事情总是觉得不够,
不知到我还有没有机会继续为她付出呢?

我再次哭了

我再次哭了
不知道是什么原因我整天感到不安.
思想是否我已经做了的事情是错误的.
我不能入睡. 有时感觉自己很可怕. 可怕因为找不到自己.
不知道如何让自己快乐. 快乐或许只把微笑地对我的脸, 但没有任何快乐的感觉.
感觉上也许会有更多的不幸事件.
感觉上迷失在战争.
感觉上遗失了.
感觉空虚.

让我们多一次机会, 是否那么难？
让我们多爱一次.
很想念那幸福的感觉
很想念那微笑
很想念, 很想念.

爱,
真的那么有力量?
我很弱.

痛了吗？

今晚，心情突然变得低落；

回到这里想起不曾被遗忘的回忆，感触良多...

想哭了吗？眼睛没给我什么讯息.

心痛了吗？胸口没有疼痛的感觉.

紧崩了吗？头也没有用力地拉扯啊.

我又怎么了？又陷入了我的忧郁漩涡吗？

该死！回到了原点原来并不是件好事；

反而已变本加厉了...

该怎么做呢？从新开始吗？离开这里吗？

我真的痛了...

再见

飞机起飞了，
带走了她。

而我，
依然停留在平地上。

今后的我们，
将生活在不同的国家。

故事就到这里，
让我亲手写下这不完美的句号。

心情

有些时候，错了就很难再回头了。

痛爱过才能体会到心绞痛的感觉。。

记得. 我爱你

喜欢妳身上的味道
想妳的时候
在空气中喷妳常用的香水
感觉妳就在身边
很想见妳心却不敢
知道自己还没能放下
更明白我们的结局已定
没勇气再在爱里沉溺
经过了洗礼
明白自己已没把握
宁愿选择退出爱的国度
不能陪妳到最后
希望妳的路途会幸福
多年以后
但愿妳还会记得我们的爱

结束

想留妳在身边,
原来对妳是一种束缚.
两个人的生活,
对我来说是一种幸福.
如今妳说不要再爱了,
那是否我就应该放手?
曾经拥有的甜蜜,
是否就一笑而过呢?
妳的改变是我的错误
我的挽留是妳的无奈.
我的爱,
妳不能适应.
妳的爱,
我没有把握.
就这样结束了,
妳满意了吧.
没有了我,妳会幸福的.

撑下去

我没有妳想像中坚强。
我只是习惯在妳面前,
掩饰我的崩溃...
直到...
撑不下去为止...

我不喜欢后悔

时间过的太快了,快的有点恐怖,想要把握将身边的事和物抓住的机会都没有,是一点机会都没有.就好像从轻快铁里望外边的风境一样, 画面迅速地一幅接一幅的划过从不因你的喜恶而停留一分一秒, 多么的无奈. 我想我是一个感情丰富的人,因为我对于生离死别包着极度灰色的心态.我不能忍受那种离别的感受.我不能忍受身边的人一个又一个的离开我. 朋友和情人对我来说是很重要的,他/她们在我生命里扮演着一个不可缺少的角色.我珍惜他们每一个.然而我对天下无不散的宴席一词觉得很不舒服,对于我来说 它就等于悲,哀,痛,苦,哭,和依依不舍的一个总代表词.

我很相信缘份.试想一下,世界上有那么多的国家,我们却生长在同一块土地上; 再经过 这么多的洲,县,和区; 以及不同的生活方式,不同的家庭背景,我们大家都能在地图上的一个超小小点相遇然后成为好朋友接着拥有同一个话提同一个生活方式,那还算不上是缘分吗? 朋友, 我们现在快乐的日子不再有了.

对于身边的另外一伴, 我包着珍惜的心态.因为又是因为缘份这两个字.我相信有很多人对于缘份这两个字都不会感到陌生.然而有许多情侣都没有好好的珍惜她们正在所拥有的.两个人 能走在一起不是件容易的事,也许需要在上辈子修下不少的福才能够得到上天的眷顾. 然而上天只能给我们一个有故事开端的空本子和一技笔,接下来写下一个怎么样的故事结局都是依从在我们的手上如何操控那一支笔.所以不要轻易放弃对方.不要甩开对方的手让对方消失在拥挤的人群中;再次遇上时可能大家只会是点头接着肩擦肩而过的陌生人.我相信无论遇到甚么事情, 只要大家深爱着对方,甚么事都可以解决的只那怕你不愿意.

我...做不到

我觉得自己快死了...
心痛得像被搅碎般...
虽然知道不得不作这样的决定，
但等到真的需要放手时...
我真的...
真的做不到...

后悔，眼泪

经历了，我想我也应该明白，更应该了解所有在身边的人与物。有些人在我的生命中都 代表或影响着我世界的晴天，阴天，雨天。一些重要的人物一句话可以决定我一天是否会有晴天的笑容，阴天的目无表情，雨天的眼泪。感谢苍天的慈悲，我遇到的 人大部分都带给我美丽的回忆。美丽的回忆多多少少都带着后悔与泪滴。

后悔，是因为我分得太清楚。太清楚失去的原因但却无从选择。太清楚我们之间的差别。太清楚能付出的远不及想拥有的。就因为太清楚所以都没有尽全力的挽留。后悔就是太清楚了，清楚的知道自己已长大了。

眼泪，流下是因为悲伤，也是因为快乐。不想失去或面临将失去的人与物，眼泪永远都是最好也是唯一的证明。快乐是我已经明白每一滴眼泪都是我的体会。体会所失去的有多重要，体会到什么应该懂得去珍惜。每一颗充满体会的眼泪，我知道我已慢慢的成熟了。

在别人的面前我隐藏了我的后悔和眼泪，因为我不想再失去你们给我的欢乐，也不愿让尴尬没收了你们的笑容。

恭喜发财 to you

└┐．．┌┘───╮∴°
╭┴──┤HAPPY ├╮
│ｏｏ│牛YEAR │●°
╰┬──╯ │ ∴°﹒
☆ ˍ|ˍ/ˍˍˍˍˍ/∴☆

I'm here to wish you and your lovely papa,mama,jiejie & feifei:

恭喜发财
身体健康
万事如意

心雨

外头的天雨不停下，

我的心雨也还未停过....

我只想活在回忆里

回忆，我只想活在回忆里。每当有一段不错的姻缘在面前的时候，我都会被回忆击败。我放弃不是我不喜欢或不爱，只是没有人能估计到爱情的伤害有多大。一次又一次的输了，爬了起来再次被击败，输了给他也输了给自己。
我不想再战了。躺在回忆的世界里可能是我最想做的事了。曾经你说只会爱我，在我身边已是永远了。但要离开时只抛下一句话就想逃跑。当一个人 遇上另一个更适合自己的他时，抛弃也不算有错。我没怪过任何人只是我对我自己所付出的有点失望。我很努力的为‘我们’将来牺牲，但我忘了现在的你慢慢的不 再属于我了。没关系，反正我只想给你幸福，只要你现在快乐就好了。
为未来付出而失去现在。我想每个人都一样吧。我输了你但我赢了我们的回忆。

你有没有试过

你有没有试过一早醒来，
发现你已失去心爱的她,
而哭得不能自己？

你有没有试过因为心痛，
而疲惫到连生活的勇气都没了？

你有没有试过去面对一些事情，
却无耐地阻碍不了它的发生？

你有没有试过知道自己不该那样做，
但都停此不了自己想那样做的冲动？

你有没有试过听见或看见
一首歌，
一副歌词，
一对情侣的动作，
一句熟悉的话，
一个特别的地方，
而感到眼泪快流下脸膀，
心痛的痛...更加的强烈？

不知怎么形容现在的心情...
再给我多一点的时间好了...
还有，
谢谢所有关心我的人，
我会好好的，
但我不会再轻易相信爱情了，
也不会轻易认真。
这是给我自己的惩罚...

我撑了一整天，
才没让眼泪们滑下脸膀...
不想让朋友们看见我落泪的样子，
一旦哭了，
我是很难收声的...

Evaluation Report也领回了，
Report比我预测中来的好。
妳也说过，
要是领得好，
还有奖赏呢。

可是现在...
我什么奖赏都不想要，
我只要妳...

可以吗？

无论有多忙,我都有想你的借口

从第三者的口中,获取妳的消息,是唯一的办法.目的真的很单纯,只是想知到妳的近况,到底在新加坡过的怎样.每天我都有在想妳,这真的成为我生活的习惯 了.无论有多忙,我都有想妳的借口.每次当我想妳时我心还会期望妳会想起我.这真的太笨了.眼泪偷偷的滑下来. .害我狼狈的把它察掉.别人说时间可以帮我忘掉妳….但是时间却告诉我,到底我有多爱妳..

思念的痛

妳过得开心吗?
可能我们以后都不会再相遇了,
一切来得好突然,
妳走了,
留下很深刻的回忆给我.

过错

哭红了双眼，
把心里的话都说出来，
那又如何？

我的无奈任然无奈，
心痛依然心痛。

原来思念不止是一种病，
还是一种过错。


p/s: Finally she is back to Malaysia for Chinese New Year holidays, how i wish i can give her a call now. Although I've tried to sms her but no reply from her,don't think if i call her she will answer my call :( Just want to let you know, I miss you and FeiFei so much..really much

I miss you

I miss you when something really good happens,
because you're the one I want to share it with.
I miss you when something is troubling me,
because you're the only one
who understands me so well.
I miss you when I laugh and cry,
because I know that you're the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear.
I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lie awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other for those were some of the best memorable times of my life.

Missing you so much it hurts!
I hear the creaking in my heart sometimes, is that what hurts so much?

Life is so short,so fast the lone hours fly, We ought to be together, you and I.

I ofter catch myself constantly wondering how you are, sitting alone with my mind set so far,reminiscing about your smile,voice and touch,damn this life...


....I'm missing you too much!

放手

妳要我放妳走,
妳说妳会比较幸福;
甚至要我祝福妳...
那瞬间, 我碎了.
我的爱,
原来不曾让妳幸福过,
我的心,
原来从没让妳信任过.
我崩溃了,
原来我一直都不懂爱妳.
这些日子让妳受尽了委屈...
我会试着手放开,
试着将自己收回.
明知道不会快乐,
但还是回到了原点.

我想

无数次，
我想像妳的小手拉着我的大掌。

无数次，
我想像被妳拥在怀里的滋味。

无数次，
我想像把蛋糕送到妳面前，
妳那兴奋如孩子的脸。

无数次，
我想像开着车子载妳到处走。

无数次，
我想像看电视时，
做在隔壁的就是妳。

无数次的无数次，
我想像下一秒睁开双瞳，
进入眼里的，是你。

雨天

我的雨天越下越大。
对不起，我没办法帮妳撑伞了。
对不起，我的勇气用完了。
对不起，我活了我爱了，我都不管了。
对不起，我厌倦了这世界。
对不起，伤痛的我又回来了。

人言可违，谁在说谎？
雨水漠糊了我双眼，
看不见...我看不见...

上天去年忘了我的圣诞愿望，
今年他也忘了我的生日愿望。

今早的眼泪偷偷染湿了棉被，
而我，只能冷眼旁观。

回忆

狠狠地咬下2口甜甜圈后，
我想问...
为什么...
它没有妳第1次买给我的那些那般好吃？
真的差好多好多...

我只愛妳

我只愛美儀

一生一世就只愛妳一個

爱? 不爱?

爱。特别的妳
但,妳爱的不是我。

是你

在laptop前坐了一整天，
赶明天的2份报告。
突然觉得超失落，
眼泪填满了眼眶。

打着打着，
眼泪流出了眼眶。

苦苦的味道...
逃避了很久，
究竞还是尝到了。
无比清楚。

这一生伤害我最深的人，
是妳。

我一定不喝孟婆汤

每次听到和前世来生有关的句子, 心里就有一种很伤感的无奈.若我走到奈何桥上我一定不要喝孟婆汤, 我不想忘记今生我要记得你, 要在来生找到你然后永生相守不分离.我只想记得今生的你, 只想能够来世可以和你相守.今生我们承受了太多的苦和泪.我只要来生和你在一起, 不管是怎么样的生活,只要有你就足够了.我会把我们的爱把我们的苦告诉孟婆, 她一定会被我们的情所感动

You're the only ONE

you're one of the only ones
I ever really wanted
to stick around.

For everything you have missed,
you have gained something else,
and for everything you gain,
you lose something else.

You may be out of my sight...
but never out of my mind...
I Miss You!

To die and part is a less evil;
but to part and live,
there, there is the torment.

Without you in a day
makes it feel like forever!

孟婆汤

传说阴间有一种汤叫“孟婆汤“ 喝下去,能忘掉尘世间的苦与愁,哀与乐,人死了,出了鬼门关,便是奈何桥.前生再怎么深恋,走在这奈何桥上也是步履稳稳不乱丝毫,心静如镜,心沉如石.桥 这边寂寂无声,因为心死,失了往生的记忆.桥那边哀哀呛天,因为心动,忘不掉的牵牵缠缠.奈何桥上,守桥的婆婆姓孟,她早熬好了汤药.只要喝了她的汤药, 前世今生的宿怨便会忘得干干净净,来世重新为人,这汤就叫做孟婆汤.饮尽孟婆汤的刹那,没有和着泪水吞咽......这一生,牵她的手,爱了,就牢牢的, 牢牢的靠近.不要在茫茫人海中丢了彼此.还是....你是你,我是我,互不相欠,各奔幸福...即使梦中遇见了也不要打招呼,笑笑,然后擦肩过,或者让我 一生都拥有着你,或者我们永远都不要相见......
喝一碗孟婆汤 忘了前世的忧伤,喝一碗孟婆汤来生跟你再续缘.无论谁,都要走奈何桥,喝孟婆汤.所以,今生今世该珍惜的,就去珍惜.

我的心真得好痛

担心妳...
却不能拥有妳...
想知妳...
但又不想从我口中提起妳...
好想妳...
但知道必须放低妳...
对妳...
原来不知不觉以到了这个地步...
不知怎样...
看妳竟更胜于我自己...
不愿去相信...
早已...明白到自己是多么爱你...
但无奈地...
我已没了这资格在妳身边照顾你...
在这时...
连想说一句关心妳...
都已不知可用什么身份跟妳说起...
就是清楚知道...
什么都做不到...
能做的只有哀心祝妳(开开心心)

2007....2008....2009

我细细回味着我的2007。

它的开始，是满满的伤痕，
若那时的妳走进了我的心，
妳一定会哭，因为那里，
全都是伤痕...全都是...


然后，在2008的2月到妳生日之前，
那些伤痕被妳一一消除，
留下幸福的脚步，
以及很多很多的回忆。

遗憾的是，就只差那一些些，
我们没能超越2009，
在它还没结束之前，
我们就已结束了。

大家也许都在想，
自己的2008有没有白过，
但我在乎的是...
我没能让我的2008开心的结束。

飞吧~

心情不见得很好。

发生了很多事，
多得...令我害怕。

心，
你们都怕失去自己的心，
却控制不了它的去留。

而我，
连自己的心落在哪个角落，
都不晓得了。

不属于你的，
抓得越牢，
只会割伤双方。


让它飞吧，
留不住的就让它飞吧...

心痛的我；
冷静的你，
强烈的对比。

过去

打开电脑内的相簿，
无可避免的看见了许多我们的过去...
单纯的我们...
快乐的我们...
生活的我们...
相爱的我们...
搞笑的我们...
复杂的我们...
幸福的我们...
任性的我们...
那心碎的感觉很强烈，
打着这篇entry,
不争气的我又想哭了。
对不起...
真的很对不起日日夜夜，
都在担心我，安慰我的朋友们...

落泪

最近的我，
在享受假期。
终于可以理所当然地,
什么都不管...

我没有一天是呆在家，
因为自己一个人在家，
特别容易想念他，
特别容易落泪。

GoodBye

Goodbye my lovely baby girl,
Have a safe flight to Singapore,
Take Care darling girl,
The promises I've made,
I will accomplish it,
Things that you told me,
Forever will keep in my heart,

I....will wait you to come back to my side again.

I....believe miracle will happen on us.

I....will always love you..care you..concern you no matter where you go.

I...will give you my heart

失去了

当妳走的一天..

我才发现自己很孤独..

以前房间也是满布妳的东西..

现在的房间好像什么也没有..

很空很空..

我只坐在床上呆呆的望着房间..

现在的我应该怎样??

i will always remember that night

Remember that night, the one where we just sat there and talked? Well that night I fell in love with you.

And for that one night I felt like I belonged.

I just thought of that night, and I realized how much I really miss you.